1. I'm an introvert! Like wow. Phone calls with people I don't know make me anxious. I'm terrible at small talk. Alone time is my jam. Even texting can be too much for me at times. I totally sympathize with people who deal with social anxiety! I am proudly, and without a doubt, a major introvert. Funny that I didn't realize it until college and later - once I moved away from my well established comfort zone. It also seems like I'm just getting more and more introverted the older I get... 😬
2. I don't like being vulnerable. Even the word itself used to annoy me - no joke. Sharing my deepest, most personal feelings? Uh, no thanks. Like, it makes me super uncomfortable. Even with people closest to me I find that I have a really hard time finding the words. Well, correction, I have about a billion words going through my head of what I could/should say, it's the actual speaking of those words that I struggle with. I've also noticed that I don't mind so much opening up about things or feelings from the past, that I've already moved on from. It's current, ongoing struggles or poignant feelings that I have a hard time expressing or even wanting to share. If I'm currently dealing with it, then I feel like it's none of your business, give it a couple weeks and I won't mind so much, lol. This is something I'm trying to work on, because I've seen how much opening up really can help yourself and others, but it definitely isn't easy.
3. I'm fairly independent, even though I didn't necessarily think of myself this way. I feel like I usually think of independent people as the ones who proudly and widely proclaim the fact, just in case anyone wasn't already aware. That is definitely not me. But I've realized that I do have a tendency to want to work things out on my own or accomplish things by myself. If I can possibly do something without having to ask for help, I will.
4. I love books, and learning, and intellect. Ok, so I pretty much always knew this one (hence making the goal in 6th grade to graduate high school as Valedictorian), but I've come to realize how much I really value it. I read a ton as a kid, but slowly stopped over the course of high school after feeling like I couldn't find anything worthwhile to read. A few years ago I made it a goal to start reading more...like 6 books a year or something (the fact that that was an improvement is almost appalling to me now! haha) Then 2 years ago I started reading a book with Julia, sharing our thoughts as we read, and it really reignited that spark! Last year alone I read 50 books (if you count my reading through the Book of Mormon again). And with my love of learning and intellect, I've found a passion for non-fiction books as well. My fiction reading is actually still fairly minimal, mostly consisting of more classic works/authors like Jane Austen. Ya, I love books. :) And I especially love that I married someone who loves it all as much as I do! (If not more...I may be more than a little envious of how quickly he can make it through a book. I'm not a slow reader, but he still gets through so much more than I can in the same amount of time! It's annoying...)
5. I love learning about and understanding people. I really enjoy biographies. And I love the aspects of personality type that help me to better understand other people that function so differently from myself. What makes people tick? I love to try and get inside their head to see how and why they act or react in certain ways. It really is becoming a passion of mine.
6. I really enjoy cooking. Especially if I don't have to come up with what to cook. ;) And thank goodness, cause I do a lot of it! (Well, by today's standards at least.) Also, the figuring out what to cook...I wouldn't survive without meal plans. Well, correction, I would live off of nothing but cereal and other easy, grab and eat foods, which I'm pretty sure is what I did all through college. I hate to cook for just myself - it feels like a waste of time. But I enjoy cooking for Gabe and I and for friends, especially when it turns out well and tastes delicious!
7. I observe and analyze - it's how I learn and process and understand the world and people around me. Also something I think I've always known, but what I didn't know is that not everyone else overthinks everything as much as I do. :P Hence also my love of learning about and understanding people - I observe and analyze!
8. I've come to really love the outdoors and nature. I never saw this one coming. Not that I ever had anything against it, I was just always the one having to be pushed/dragged out the door, never the one calling for others to join me. I was generally indifferent to it. But now I just love the calming nature of, well, nature. The further I can get from the sights and sounds of the city the better! But also, just being outside in the sun is so rejuvenating, even if it's in the middle of a neighborhood (our apartment balcony facing the parking lot, unfortunately not so much).
Monday, April 13, 2020
Sunday, March 22, 2020
Jacob Chapter 5
Over the last few years as I have spent more time in the Book of Mormon, I have come to love Jacob chapter 5 with its Allegory of the Olive Tree. And though its main message is that of the scattering and gathering of Israel, what I have come to love most are certain phrases and words within it that teach me of God's ways and His love for His children. So here are some of those phrases and what they mean to me.
vs 5: "according to his word" - His promises are sure - we can rely on the Lord! As it says in D&C 1:38, "What I the Lord have spoken, I have spoken, and I excuse not myself; and though the heavens and the earth shall pass away, my word shall not pass away, but shall all be fulfilled." That which He has promised us we will receive as we remain faithful. This understanding gives such a surety of hope as we wait upon the Lord.
vs 7, 11, 13, 32, 46, 47, 51, 66: "It grieveth me that I should lose this tree" - He cares for us. He loves us. He grieves when we are lost. Also that grief is a godly attribute. There is no anger, frustration, or irritability. Not indignation or criticism, just godly sorrow and grief. No "I told you so," just a wish for the salvation of loved ones.
vs 8, 13-14, 36, 53-54, 75: "withersoever I will," "according to his will and pleasure," "for mine own purpose" - He is the Lord of the vineyard, the gardener. We must learn to trust Him and accept His will above our own. It is His choice, not ours. "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts" (Isaiah 55:8-9).
vs 3-5, 7-13, 20, 22-28, 31, 33-34, 36-37, 46-47, 52-58, 60, 62-64, 67-69, 71, 73-77: Prune, pluck, dig about, dunged, graft, nourish, preserve - These words are found more often than not throughout the chapter. I love the reminder that they are of the Lord's constant care for His people, as well as the reminder that such care is not always comfortable or pleasant. Pruning, plucking, grafting, digging and dunging about - these don't sound like particularly pleasant experiences for those on the receiving end. And yet we know that this is how the nourishing and preserving are brought about. Without the painful or at least uncomfortable efforts and experiences, the desired result could not be achieved. Elder Maxwell taught that principle beautifully over and over again, reminding us of the necessity of such opposition in our lives if we are to be made in His image. "Know though, my son, that all these things shall give thee experience, and shall be for thy good" (D&C 122:7).
vs 8, 11, 18-20, 23, 29, 31, 33, 46, 54, 71, 74, 76: "lay up of the fruit thereof against the season, unto mine own self" - The Lord desires to bring us unto Him. We wants to make us His own, because He loves us.
vs 10: "the servant of the Lord of the vineyard did according to the word of the Lord of the vineyard" - How blessed we are to be led by a prophet of God! He speaks for and acts in behalf of the Lord in these latter-days. He leads the church "according to the will of the Lord," and so we can rely and depend on him. He is trustworthy just as the Lord is.
vs 15, 29: "a long time passed away" - Sometimes it feels as though "a long time (has) passed away" in our own lives before we receive the guidance, direction, or blessings we are seeking from the Lord. The presence of these words reminds me that it's okay. Sometimes He intends for us to wait, but our time will come, He will come.
vs 22: "I knew that it was a poor spot...wherefore...I have nourished it this long time" - It doesn't matter where we are planted, how ideal or not ideal our situation or environment is. The Lord will nourish us, and that is all we need to thrive and bring forth good fruit. The Lord will give us everything we need, even if it's not everything we want, to succeed.
vs 41, 47, 49: "What could I have done more for my vineyard?" "I have stretched forth mine hand almost all the day long," "I have done all" - Truly the Lord has done all. He gave His all, His life, Himself, and continues to so give, nourishing, lifting, and strengthening us, caring for us. He has and will do all He can to preserve and save us. That is the love that He has for us.
vs 48: "Who is it that has corrupted my vineyard? ...the loftiness of thy vineyard...taking strength unto themselves" - We must learn humility. Pride, trusting in the arm of the flesh, these lead to our ultimate failure. Hence the need for pruning, to cut back our "loftiness." We need to learn to be able to say, "Thank you, Mr. Gardener, for loving me enough to cut me down." Because surely he does so only for our own good and salvation.
vs 50-51: "spare it a little longer" - He has such patience with us! How many times have we produced corrupt fruit, but He has chosen to "spare us a little longer," working with us and enabling us to progress and improve rather than giving up on us and our imperfections? If He is so patient with us, we ought to be as well. We must learn to be patient with ourselves and with our loved ones as we continue to struggle along our journey, and choose to spare judgment "a little longer."
vs 54: "sufficiently strong" - Am I "sufficiently strong"? Am I bringing forth good fruit unto the Lord? And am I rooted firmly enough to continue doing so? If so, what am I doing right to keep myself "sufficiently strong"? If not, what am I doing that I need to stop doing, and what am I not doing that I need to start doing?
vs 59: "because of the change...the good may overcome the evil" - Sometimes a little bit of change is all we need to help us grow and push forward. Change can be hard, it can be scary, but it can also be just what we need. So if and when unexpected changes comes into your life, ask the Lord how you can grow from it rather than worrying or complaining. See what it is He wants you to learn.
vs 66: "clear away the bad according as the good shall grow" - This principle is so meaningful to me. We can't expect to change overnight. Sometimes where we are looks so far from where we want to be. But if we try to cover that distance in one, big jump, we will fail. Just as with gospel knowledge, personal growth comes line upon line, one step at a time. We have to let the good within us continue to grow before we can expect to root out the bad, the weaknesses and imperfections. And when we do it that way, those failings and faults will fall away naturally. When we try to scour them out before learning the correct patterns to replace them, we are left with a big, empty hole and no understanding of how to properly fill it. So it's okay if you're still struggling to overcome that bad habit that feels like it has been plaguing you for years. That's how it's meant to be! Growth is slow and gradual, so much so that we likely will not even recognize it in our day-to-day lives unless we regularly take the time to stop and reflect on where we have been and how far we have come.
vs 72: "the Lord of the vineyard labored also with them" - The Lord indeed does labor with us and at our sides when we are engaged in His work. What greater help and companion could we hope for than the Lord Himself?
vs 5: "according to his word" - His promises are sure - we can rely on the Lord! As it says in D&C 1:38, "What I the Lord have spoken, I have spoken, and I excuse not myself; and though the heavens and the earth shall pass away, my word shall not pass away, but shall all be fulfilled." That which He has promised us we will receive as we remain faithful. This understanding gives such a surety of hope as we wait upon the Lord.
vs 7, 11, 13, 32, 46, 47, 51, 66: "It grieveth me that I should lose this tree" - He cares for us. He loves us. He grieves when we are lost. Also that grief is a godly attribute. There is no anger, frustration, or irritability. Not indignation or criticism, just godly sorrow and grief. No "I told you so," just a wish for the salvation of loved ones.
vs 8, 13-14, 36, 53-54, 75: "withersoever I will," "according to his will and pleasure," "for mine own purpose" - He is the Lord of the vineyard, the gardener. We must learn to trust Him and accept His will above our own. It is His choice, not ours. "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts" (Isaiah 55:8-9).
vs 3-5, 7-13, 20, 22-28, 31, 33-34, 36-37, 46-47, 52-58, 60, 62-64, 67-69, 71, 73-77: Prune, pluck, dig about, dunged, graft, nourish, preserve - These words are found more often than not throughout the chapter. I love the reminder that they are of the Lord's constant care for His people, as well as the reminder that such care is not always comfortable or pleasant. Pruning, plucking, grafting, digging and dunging about - these don't sound like particularly pleasant experiences for those on the receiving end. And yet we know that this is how the nourishing and preserving are brought about. Without the painful or at least uncomfortable efforts and experiences, the desired result could not be achieved. Elder Maxwell taught that principle beautifully over and over again, reminding us of the necessity of such opposition in our lives if we are to be made in His image. "Know though, my son, that all these things shall give thee experience, and shall be for thy good" (D&C 122:7).
vs 8, 11, 18-20, 23, 29, 31, 33, 46, 54, 71, 74, 76: "lay up of the fruit thereof against the season, unto mine own self" - The Lord desires to bring us unto Him. We wants to make us His own, because He loves us.
vs 10: "the servant of the Lord of the vineyard did according to the word of the Lord of the vineyard" - How blessed we are to be led by a prophet of God! He speaks for and acts in behalf of the Lord in these latter-days. He leads the church "according to the will of the Lord," and so we can rely and depend on him. He is trustworthy just as the Lord is.
vs 15, 29: "a long time passed away" - Sometimes it feels as though "a long time (has) passed away" in our own lives before we receive the guidance, direction, or blessings we are seeking from the Lord. The presence of these words reminds me that it's okay. Sometimes He intends for us to wait, but our time will come, He will come.
vs 22: "I knew that it was a poor spot...wherefore...I have nourished it this long time" - It doesn't matter where we are planted, how ideal or not ideal our situation or environment is. The Lord will nourish us, and that is all we need to thrive and bring forth good fruit. The Lord will give us everything we need, even if it's not everything we want, to succeed.
vs 41, 47, 49: "What could I have done more for my vineyard?" "I have stretched forth mine hand almost all the day long," "I have done all" - Truly the Lord has done all. He gave His all, His life, Himself, and continues to so give, nourishing, lifting, and strengthening us, caring for us. He has and will do all He can to preserve and save us. That is the love that He has for us.
vs 48: "Who is it that has corrupted my vineyard? ...the loftiness of thy vineyard...taking strength unto themselves" - We must learn humility. Pride, trusting in the arm of the flesh, these lead to our ultimate failure. Hence the need for pruning, to cut back our "loftiness." We need to learn to be able to say, "Thank you, Mr. Gardener, for loving me enough to cut me down." Because surely he does so only for our own good and salvation.
vs 50-51: "spare it a little longer" - He has such patience with us! How many times have we produced corrupt fruit, but He has chosen to "spare us a little longer," working with us and enabling us to progress and improve rather than giving up on us and our imperfections? If He is so patient with us, we ought to be as well. We must learn to be patient with ourselves and with our loved ones as we continue to struggle along our journey, and choose to spare judgment "a little longer."
vs 54: "sufficiently strong" - Am I "sufficiently strong"? Am I bringing forth good fruit unto the Lord? And am I rooted firmly enough to continue doing so? If so, what am I doing right to keep myself "sufficiently strong"? If not, what am I doing that I need to stop doing, and what am I not doing that I need to start doing?
vs 59: "because of the change...the good may overcome the evil" - Sometimes a little bit of change is all we need to help us grow and push forward. Change can be hard, it can be scary, but it can also be just what we need. So if and when unexpected changes comes into your life, ask the Lord how you can grow from it rather than worrying or complaining. See what it is He wants you to learn.
vs 66: "clear away the bad according as the good shall grow" - This principle is so meaningful to me. We can't expect to change overnight. Sometimes where we are looks so far from where we want to be. But if we try to cover that distance in one, big jump, we will fail. Just as with gospel knowledge, personal growth comes line upon line, one step at a time. We have to let the good within us continue to grow before we can expect to root out the bad, the weaknesses and imperfections. And when we do it that way, those failings and faults will fall away naturally. When we try to scour them out before learning the correct patterns to replace them, we are left with a big, empty hole and no understanding of how to properly fill it. So it's okay if you're still struggling to overcome that bad habit that feels like it has been plaguing you for years. That's how it's meant to be! Growth is slow and gradual, so much so that we likely will not even recognize it in our day-to-day lives unless we regularly take the time to stop and reflect on where we have been and how far we have come.
vs 72: "the Lord of the vineyard labored also with them" - The Lord indeed does labor with us and at our sides when we are engaged in His work. What greater help and companion could we hope for than the Lord Himself?
Monday, March 9, 2020
Hear Him
How do I "Hear Him"?
I hear Him when I read from the "best books." When the words of others come from the pages and into my heart. When the author's words become His, speaking to me.
That is how I hear Him.
I hear Him in sacred music. It's beauty brings peace to my heart and I hear Him saying "Be still."
That is how I hear Him.
I hear Him when I am with family. When I am surrounded by the laughter, smiles, and companionship of loved ones. I hear Him saying that the joy of family is everything.
That is how I hear Him.
I hear Him because of what my parents have taught me. The family lessons, the individual conversations, the heartfelt prayers. I hear Him because they showed me daily how to listen.
That is why I hear Him.
I hear Him in the temple. Its peace enfolds me. He enfolds me. That sacred space reaches in and touches all of me. I hear Him saying that this is truth, and truth eternal.
That is how I hear Him.
I hear Him when I obey. For what good is the hearing if we fail to act? And as I act, He speaks again and tells me to keep going.
That is how I hear Him.
I hear Him when I am surrounded by his creations. When the din and confusion of mankind and our manufactured world take a back seat to the grandeur and beauty of His. When I step past the buildings, the cars, and the artificial lights and step into the forests, the fields, and the rolling hills. I hear Him saying, "By My hand were these made."
That is how I hear Him.
I hear Him in my anguish. When the pain is more than I can bear. When I am broken and in despair. He soothes my aching soul, binds my broken heart, calms my troubled mind. I hear him saying, "I understand."
That is how I hear Him.
I hear Him when I read from the "best books." When the words of others come from the pages and into my heart. When the author's words become His, speaking to me.
That is how I hear Him.
I hear Him in sacred music. It's beauty brings peace to my heart and I hear Him saying "Be still."
That is how I hear Him.
I hear Him when I am with family. When I am surrounded by the laughter, smiles, and companionship of loved ones. I hear Him saying that the joy of family is everything.
That is how I hear Him.
I hear Him because of what my parents have taught me. The family lessons, the individual conversations, the heartfelt prayers. I hear Him because they showed me daily how to listen.
That is why I hear Him.
I hear Him in the temple. Its peace enfolds me. He enfolds me. That sacred space reaches in and touches all of me. I hear Him saying that this is truth, and truth eternal.
That is how I hear Him.
I hear Him when I obey. For what good is the hearing if we fail to act? And as I act, He speaks again and tells me to keep going.
That is how I hear Him.
I hear Him when I am surrounded by his creations. When the din and confusion of mankind and our manufactured world take a back seat to the grandeur and beauty of His. When I step past the buildings, the cars, and the artificial lights and step into the forests, the fields, and the rolling hills. I hear Him saying, "By My hand were these made."
That is how I hear Him.
I hear Him in my anguish. When the pain is more than I can bear. When I am broken and in despair. He soothes my aching soul, binds my broken heart, calms my troubled mind. I hear him saying, "I understand."
That is how I hear Him.
Sunday, February 2, 2020
Sweet Moments in Primary
The last two Sundays in Primary have been especially sweet and touching. Both weeks I sat down with the kids during singing time and sang with them (instead of standing off to the side with the presidency and just jumping in every now and then). Those kids know those songs, and they sing their little hearts out!
Last week, as we got ready to sing When I Am Baptized, the singing leader asked the kids what happens when you get baptized. One of the 8 year olds, who was just baptized a few months ago, raised his hand and said we become clean. Then one of the little 4 year olds raised his hand and said (with his adorable little voice), "Um, you get da Holy Ghost to come into youw heawt." All of the leaders were a little stunned at such an insightful answer from someone so young (including the singing leader who is the little boy's dad, haha).
And besides that sweetest of comments, my heart was just touched listening to all of those little voices sing with such conviction words like "I belong to The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints." And "I feel my Savior's love," "keep the commandments, in this there is safety and peace." Or "I love to see the temple...a family is forever" the day after witnessing 2 of those little girls be sealed to their parents as a family. As I watched them, I was amazed to see even the shy, timid kids singing along with everyone else, or trying to follow the singing leader when they didn't know all the words.
Today we had a little girl (7 1/2) who only comes occasionally and is a little more difficult (she has a hard time sitting still and paying attention, and can often be a bit disruptive). When the younger girl who was supposed to be giving the scripture stopped repeating after her dad because she was too shy, the 7 1/2 year old chimed in and repeated the next line of the verse (1 Nephi 3:7). Then as they were singing Nephi's Courage, she joined in and sang out with all her heart. When they finished, and the singing leader was talking about the meaning of the song, he asked what "courageous" meant, and she raised her hand, "Um, I believe in this instance...it's talking about when it's hard to do the right thing, but you do it anyway." I was amazed at her comprehension (as well as her very grown up use of "in this instance"). It reminded me not to assume things just because someone is different or difficult. And just showed me again how much children really do understand and what great potential they have.
Last week, as we got ready to sing When I Am Baptized, the singing leader asked the kids what happens when you get baptized. One of the 8 year olds, who was just baptized a few months ago, raised his hand and said we become clean. Then one of the little 4 year olds raised his hand and said (with his adorable little voice), "Um, you get da Holy Ghost to come into youw heawt." All of the leaders were a little stunned at such an insightful answer from someone so young (including the singing leader who is the little boy's dad, haha).
And besides that sweetest of comments, my heart was just touched listening to all of those little voices sing with such conviction words like "I belong to The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints." And "I feel my Savior's love," "keep the commandments, in this there is safety and peace." Or "I love to see the temple...a family is forever" the day after witnessing 2 of those little girls be sealed to their parents as a family. As I watched them, I was amazed to see even the shy, timid kids singing along with everyone else, or trying to follow the singing leader when they didn't know all the words.
Today we had a little girl (7 1/2) who only comes occasionally and is a little more difficult (she has a hard time sitting still and paying attention, and can often be a bit disruptive). When the younger girl who was supposed to be giving the scripture stopped repeating after her dad because she was too shy, the 7 1/2 year old chimed in and repeated the next line of the verse (1 Nephi 3:7). Then as they were singing Nephi's Courage, she joined in and sang out with all her heart. When they finished, and the singing leader was talking about the meaning of the song, he asked what "courageous" meant, and she raised her hand, "Um, I believe in this instance...it's talking about when it's hard to do the right thing, but you do it anyway." I was amazed at her comprehension (as well as her very grown up use of "in this instance"). It reminded me not to assume things just because someone is different or difficult. And just showed me again how much children really do understand and what great potential they have.
Thursday, January 16, 2020
"Remember how merciful the Lord hath been"
It feels like it's time to write again...
I finished the Book of Mormon just as 2019 ended, perfect timing to begin again on track with Come Follow Me for this year. In the final chapter, Moroni 10 verse 3, Moroni says, "I would exhort you that when ye shall read these things...that ye would remember how merciful the Lord hath been unto the children of men." The phrase struck me. I wrote it on a small piece of paper, and decided to keep it in my scriptures so that I see it each time I open them up to read.
There is so much in this life that is convoluted and confusing. Opportunities for distraction are everywhere; it is so easy to miss the mark. Things are never perfect; there's always something that could be at least a little bit better.
But what about all that is right? All that is good and happy and beautiful in our lives?
Sometimes when I truly think of the Lord's blessings, when I "remember how merciful the Lord hath been unto [me]," it's staggering. Are there things I don't understand, things I would change if I could? Certainly. But I cannot deny the abundance of His "tender mercies" in my life.
Gabe. An honorable parentage. Access to good books, the best books. Good friends who are a strength to me. My testimony and faith. The temple. Financial means to provide for our needs - the necessities and some of the wants. The ability to try again, and again, and again as I falter and fail each day.
The abundant mercy of that last one becomes ever more apparent to me. I remember struggling as a teenager to grasp and understand the place of the Savior's atonement in my life. What great sins had I ever committed that I needed to repent of?
But as time goes on, the words of men such as Nephi and King Benjamin become more real and visceral to me.
"O wretched man that I am! ...my heart sorroweth because of my flesh...I am encompassed about, because of the temptations which do so easily beset me."
"I say, if ye should serve him with all your whole souls yet ye would be unprofitable servants...ye are indebted unto him...and are, and will be, forever and ever..."
But the beauty is that the Lord doesn't see us that way. We are not His "unprofitable servants," we are "[His] work and [His] glory." When we see ourselves not measuring up, He simply says, "try again." And not just, "keep trying," but "let me help you get there."
It's so easy to look at ourselves from day to day and feel like we're getting nowhere. That's when the long view makes all the difference. I look at the day to day and just see myself failing again and again to make the changes and improvements I want in my life. But step back a few years, look at where you are now compared to then. Use that as your measuring tool instead of where you were yesterday, and it makes all the difference.
And what is it that has brought you to where you are? The tender mercies of the Lord, the enabling power of the atonement of Jesus Christ. We literally could not do it without Him. It is His grace, His mercy, His merits, that gives us the power to overcome, the power to become. Until someday, "that when he shall appear we shall be like him, for we shall see him as he is."
Yes, "remember how merciful the Lord hath been unto the children of men."
I finished the Book of Mormon just as 2019 ended, perfect timing to begin again on track with Come Follow Me for this year. In the final chapter, Moroni 10 verse 3, Moroni says, "I would exhort you that when ye shall read these things...that ye would remember how merciful the Lord hath been unto the children of men." The phrase struck me. I wrote it on a small piece of paper, and decided to keep it in my scriptures so that I see it each time I open them up to read.
There is so much in this life that is convoluted and confusing. Opportunities for distraction are everywhere; it is so easy to miss the mark. Things are never perfect; there's always something that could be at least a little bit better.
But what about all that is right? All that is good and happy and beautiful in our lives?
Sometimes when I truly think of the Lord's blessings, when I "remember how merciful the Lord hath been unto [me]," it's staggering. Are there things I don't understand, things I would change if I could? Certainly. But I cannot deny the abundance of His "tender mercies" in my life.
Gabe. An honorable parentage. Access to good books, the best books. Good friends who are a strength to me. My testimony and faith. The temple. Financial means to provide for our needs - the necessities and some of the wants. The ability to try again, and again, and again as I falter and fail each day.
The abundant mercy of that last one becomes ever more apparent to me. I remember struggling as a teenager to grasp and understand the place of the Savior's atonement in my life. What great sins had I ever committed that I needed to repent of?
But as time goes on, the words of men such as Nephi and King Benjamin become more real and visceral to me.
"O wretched man that I am! ...my heart sorroweth because of my flesh...I am encompassed about, because of the temptations which do so easily beset me."
"I say, if ye should serve him with all your whole souls yet ye would be unprofitable servants...ye are indebted unto him...and are, and will be, forever and ever..."
But the beauty is that the Lord doesn't see us that way. We are not His "unprofitable servants," we are "[His] work and [His] glory." When we see ourselves not measuring up, He simply says, "try again." And not just, "keep trying," but "let me help you get there."
It's so easy to look at ourselves from day to day and feel like we're getting nowhere. That's when the long view makes all the difference. I look at the day to day and just see myself failing again and again to make the changes and improvements I want in my life. But step back a few years, look at where you are now compared to then. Use that as your measuring tool instead of where you were yesterday, and it makes all the difference.
And what is it that has brought you to where you are? The tender mercies of the Lord, the enabling power of the atonement of Jesus Christ. We literally could not do it without Him. It is His grace, His mercy, His merits, that gives us the power to overcome, the power to become. Until someday, "that when he shall appear we shall be like him, for we shall see him as he is."
Yes, "remember how merciful the Lord hath been unto the children of men."
Saturday, January 11, 2020
Books of 2019 - Part 2
About time I get this one finished and posted since we're a week and a half into 2020. By the time December hit, I knew I wasn't going to reach my goal of 52 books, but I thought I could reach 50, and that's a nice, round number, so I went with that. Well, December 31st rolled around and I still needed to finish 3 books before the day ended...procrastination at its finest, haha. I finished one, and then another, and was working my way well through the 3rd, and then I had to shower and our friends came over to celebrate New Year's Eve. So just a few hours of reading short, I DIDN'T finish. Unless, as I realized a week later, you count my reading the Book of Mormon as my 50th book. ;) Regardless, I doubled the number of books I read the year before, and I'd say that's pretty impressive! Plus I always have this year to try again. ;)
27. Anytime, Anywhere, by John H. Groberg - (finished 7/10) Thoroughly enjoyable, as with all of Elder Groberg's books. Written in much the same style as his other 2 books about serving in Tonga, this one covers stories and experiences from his service around the world as a Seventy. Fascinating to hear bits of other cultures, and inspiring to read about his example of being willing to serve whenever, wherever, and however the Lord calls.
28. The Promised Messiah, by Bruce R. McConkie - (finished 7/21) I made it a goal to read McConkie's Messiah series this year. This first book took me much longer than I intended. I really haven't read many dense, scholarly religious books, and I found there was a bit of a learning curve to get into it. This one was also hard because it just felt like a compilation of prophecies about the Savior without much organization or continuity other than "here's some prophecies about his mission, here's some prophecies about his birth" etc.
29. The Faith of our Pioneer Fathers, by Bryant S. Hinckley - (finished 7/29) This was a quick read, just short biographical sketches of some of our pioneer fathers. It's one of the books we inherited from Grandpa Willis.
30. Stalwarts of Mormonism, by Preston Nibley - (finished 8/2) Same as the one before, one we inherited from Grandpa. A quick read of short biographical sketches. Definitely learned some interesting stories about some interesting people!
31. The Orphan Keeper, by Camron Wright - (finished 8/6) Wow! This was a crazy story. It's a novel, based on a true story, about a young Indian boy who is kidnapped from his family, taken to an orphanage, and adopted by a family in the U.S. The people at the orphanage don't care when he tries to tell them he has a family, and he can't tell the family who adopted him because they can't understand each other's language. It really was an amazing, miraculous story. I stayed up one night to read one chapter before bed...and ended up reading until 2 or 3 in the morning because I couldn't put it down. Definitely one I'd recommend!
32. Sir, that's a Book of Mormon! (How One Baptist Minister Discovered the Restored Gospel of Jesus Christ), by Lynn Ridenhour - (finished 8/27) Interesting, short little book. He's a Baptist minister who preaches from the Book of Mormon. I enjoy biographies, so it was neat to hear about where life has taken him.
33. The Abolition of Man, by C. S. Lewis - (finished 8/28) A very short book, but not necessarily a quick read. Also very applicable to today. The premise is that certain values are intrinsic (a waterfall is beautiful because it is beautiful in and of itself, not just because someone finds it enjoyable), and when you try to remove the source of values and morals, their foundation, the values and morals will eventually be lost as well. Or in today's terms - moral relativism is a lie.
34. The Mortal Messiah: From Bethlehem to Calvary Book 1, by Bruce R. McConkie - (finished 9/1) This was much easier to read than The Promised Messiah. Partially because I had been introduced to the style of writing, but also because it had much more organization and flow than the first. I really enjoyed the background it gave me for Israelite life at the time of Christ's birth.
35. Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can't Stop Talking, by Susan Cain - (finished 9/3) I really enjoyed the information in this book, although it was a bit dense and harder to get through. There were definitely some fascinating studies and insights though. Something I can very much relate to. ;)
36. Life's Lessons Learned, by Dallin H. Oaks - (finished 9/4) This was a very quick read, one that I borrowed from Mom and Dad. Pretty much what the title says, it's a bunch of short chapters relating experiences from his life that have taught him important lessons. I think my favorite take-away from this one was his chapter on tithing. He talked about how when he and his wife would experience an unexpected financial gain, or an unexpected decrease in expenses, they would refer to it aloud as a "tithing blessing". Gabe and I have started doing the same and appreciate the reminder that it is to us of the true source of our blessings.
37. The Mortal Messiah: From Bethlehem to Calvary Book 2, by Bruce R. McConkie - (finished 10/4) Next in the series. Although they take some time to get through, I appreciate what I'm gaining from them.
38. Digital Minimalism: Choosing a Focused Life in a Noisy World, by Cal Newport - (finished 10/7) I finally read this book after 2 of my friends talking about it at Literary Society (instead of a traditional book club, we get together once a month and share with each other whatever we've been reading) and highly recommending it. And I completely agree with them! I especially appreciated the chapter on solitude. We are so surrounded by constant access to the internet that we rarely, if ever, experience true solitude anymore. Even what used to be our moments of forced solitude (waiting for an appointment at an office, going for a walk/run/drive) are now filled with pulling out our smartphones to entertain/pacify ourselves rather than sitting with our thoughts and pondering.
39. Insights From a Prophet's Life: Russell M. Nelson, by Sheri Dew - (finished 10/17) I loved this one! It is written so well. And President Nelson has led such an interesting life, with so much struggle as well as opportunity. I loved learning about his life, his faith, and his service.
40. The Princess Bride, by William Goldman - (finished 10/19) A very fun read. It probably matches the movie closer than any other book I've read that's been made into a movie. (Probably because the author loved his book, and wrote the movie script himself.) Definitely nostalgic to read when you've grown up watching the movie.
41. As You Wish: Inconceivable Tales from the Making of The Princess Bride, by Cary Elwes - (finished 10/29) This was a fun read, with some very funny backstory to some of the actors and movie scenes. (Like the fact that when Count Rugen knocks out Westley after he comes out of the fire swamp...Carry Elwes was literally knocked unconscious, haha). Anyone who loves The Princess Bride would enjoy reading it.
42. Hubener vs Hitler, by Richard Lloyd Dewey - (finished 11/7) Very interesting story, although written very UN-interestingly (I'm pretty sure this is actually an academic paper, because over half the book is footnotes citing sources, and instead of synthesizing different sources he details every single version of the story from each source.) Anyway, it's the story of Helmuth Hubener, a teenage Latter-day Saint boy in Germany who determined to actively resist Hitler and his regime and was eventually tried and killed for his actions.
43. Be Thou an Example, by Gordon B. Hinckley - (finished 11/12) Another one I borrowed from Mom and Dad. Like Standing for Something, it was fun to read President Hinckley's voice. Although I definitely enjoyed Standing for Something more - it felt a bit more polished and put together.
44. The Magnolia Story, by Chip and Joanna Gaines - (finished 11/22) If you enjoy Fixer Upper and Chip and Joanna, you'll enjoy their book. You'd never know the crazy things they've gone through to get where they're at (plus just the funny details about their life story). You can definitely hear their voice in the writing, their personality as well as their faith. My favorite was the story of Chip being left in charge of their first baby while Joanna went running and him forgetting him at home - twice, haha.
45. I Am Malala: The Girl Who Stood Up for Education and Was Shot by the Taliban, by Malala Yousafzai and Christina Lamb - (finished 12/11) Eye opening, and interesting to hear from the perspective of someone living within the terror of the Taliban and a country torn apart by corruption and war. There are so many innocently suffering at the hands of others.
46. Book of a Thousand Days, by Shannon Hale - (finished 12/11) I read this one in one day. I love Shannon Hale, and she didn't disappoint with this one. It's the story of a handmaid who is locked in a tower with the princess she serves after the princess refuses to marry to the man her father has promised her to. A love story, fantasy, just an enjoyable read.
47. The History of Joseph Smith by His Mother, by Lucy Mack Smith - (finished 12/19) I decided to read this one as part of my preparation for next General Conference. I loved reading it, although it's more of a history of Lucy Mack during the life of Joseph (which was also very interesting and faith-promoting, it just didn't always follow him directly like I expected). I especially loved learning about the faith of his family and his father's dreams. A great resource for learning more about Joseph Smith and the early history of the church.
48. One More Strain of Praise, by Neal A. Maxwell - (finished 12/31) This is (clearly) one of the ones that I finished last minute on New Year's Eve. Oh how I love Elder Maxwell's books! He writes with such beauty and such faith. Reading his books always encourages me to try harder and be better.
49. Alice's Adventures in Wonderland, by Lewis Carroll - (finished 12/31) Although I was only a couple chapters into this one before New Year's Eve, I finished it pretty quickly because it's such an easy read. It really is a very whimsical story. My biggest thought when I finished though is that the movie is nothing like it! Seriously...the movie is missing so much, and added in a bunch of random stuff, too. But I guess they are the same in that they're just silly, random stories of a child's daydreaming.
The Temple Letters, by Claude Richards - I got so close to finishing this one, too! This is another book we inherited from Grandpa Willis. It's a compilation of letters a man sent out to his family to encourage them to be more engaged in temple and family history work. The best part of it was the quotes he shared from prophets and the brethren.
Increase in Learning, by David A. Bednar - Another one I borrowed from Mom and Dad. In true Elder Bednar style, over half the book is "related readings" following each chapter where he shares scriptures and past talks related to the principles/doctrine he's just explained. I'm enjoying it, just didn't get around to finishing it during the crazy month of December.
The Mortal Messiah: From Bethlehem to Calvary Book 3, by Bruce R. McConkie - Clearly I didn't finish the series by the end of the year like I'd intended (there's still 2 more after this one, too). After I finished book 2 in October, I got about 50 pages into this one and then just stopped. I definitely plan to finish it and the rest of the series this year, I just stopped working my way through it.
Now, for my own list-loving sake, a breakdown of genres of the books I read:
Fiction/Novel: 7
Biography: 20
Non-Fiction: 6
Gospel: 16
27. Anytime, Anywhere, by John H. Groberg - (finished 7/10) Thoroughly enjoyable, as with all of Elder Groberg's books. Written in much the same style as his other 2 books about serving in Tonga, this one covers stories and experiences from his service around the world as a Seventy. Fascinating to hear bits of other cultures, and inspiring to read about his example of being willing to serve whenever, wherever, and however the Lord calls.
28. The Promised Messiah, by Bruce R. McConkie - (finished 7/21) I made it a goal to read McConkie's Messiah series this year. This first book took me much longer than I intended. I really haven't read many dense, scholarly religious books, and I found there was a bit of a learning curve to get into it. This one was also hard because it just felt like a compilation of prophecies about the Savior without much organization or continuity other than "here's some prophecies about his mission, here's some prophecies about his birth" etc.
29. The Faith of our Pioneer Fathers, by Bryant S. Hinckley - (finished 7/29) This was a quick read, just short biographical sketches of some of our pioneer fathers. It's one of the books we inherited from Grandpa Willis.
30. Stalwarts of Mormonism, by Preston Nibley - (finished 8/2) Same as the one before, one we inherited from Grandpa. A quick read of short biographical sketches. Definitely learned some interesting stories about some interesting people!
31. The Orphan Keeper, by Camron Wright - (finished 8/6) Wow! This was a crazy story. It's a novel, based on a true story, about a young Indian boy who is kidnapped from his family, taken to an orphanage, and adopted by a family in the U.S. The people at the orphanage don't care when he tries to tell them he has a family, and he can't tell the family who adopted him because they can't understand each other's language. It really was an amazing, miraculous story. I stayed up one night to read one chapter before bed...and ended up reading until 2 or 3 in the morning because I couldn't put it down. Definitely one I'd recommend!
32. Sir, that's a Book of Mormon! (How One Baptist Minister Discovered the Restored Gospel of Jesus Christ), by Lynn Ridenhour - (finished 8/27) Interesting, short little book. He's a Baptist minister who preaches from the Book of Mormon. I enjoy biographies, so it was neat to hear about where life has taken him.
33. The Abolition of Man, by C. S. Lewis - (finished 8/28) A very short book, but not necessarily a quick read. Also very applicable to today. The premise is that certain values are intrinsic (a waterfall is beautiful because it is beautiful in and of itself, not just because someone finds it enjoyable), and when you try to remove the source of values and morals, their foundation, the values and morals will eventually be lost as well. Or in today's terms - moral relativism is a lie.
34. The Mortal Messiah: From Bethlehem to Calvary Book 1, by Bruce R. McConkie - (finished 9/1) This was much easier to read than The Promised Messiah. Partially because I had been introduced to the style of writing, but also because it had much more organization and flow than the first. I really enjoyed the background it gave me for Israelite life at the time of Christ's birth.
35. Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can't Stop Talking, by Susan Cain - (finished 9/3) I really enjoyed the information in this book, although it was a bit dense and harder to get through. There were definitely some fascinating studies and insights though. Something I can very much relate to. ;)
36. Life's Lessons Learned, by Dallin H. Oaks - (finished 9/4) This was a very quick read, one that I borrowed from Mom and Dad. Pretty much what the title says, it's a bunch of short chapters relating experiences from his life that have taught him important lessons. I think my favorite take-away from this one was his chapter on tithing. He talked about how when he and his wife would experience an unexpected financial gain, or an unexpected decrease in expenses, they would refer to it aloud as a "tithing blessing". Gabe and I have started doing the same and appreciate the reminder that it is to us of the true source of our blessings.
37. The Mortal Messiah: From Bethlehem to Calvary Book 2, by Bruce R. McConkie - (finished 10/4) Next in the series. Although they take some time to get through, I appreciate what I'm gaining from them.
38. Digital Minimalism: Choosing a Focused Life in a Noisy World, by Cal Newport - (finished 10/7) I finally read this book after 2 of my friends talking about it at Literary Society (instead of a traditional book club, we get together once a month and share with each other whatever we've been reading) and highly recommending it. And I completely agree with them! I especially appreciated the chapter on solitude. We are so surrounded by constant access to the internet that we rarely, if ever, experience true solitude anymore. Even what used to be our moments of forced solitude (waiting for an appointment at an office, going for a walk/run/drive) are now filled with pulling out our smartphones to entertain/pacify ourselves rather than sitting with our thoughts and pondering.
39. Insights From a Prophet's Life: Russell M. Nelson, by Sheri Dew - (finished 10/17) I loved this one! It is written so well. And President Nelson has led such an interesting life, with so much struggle as well as opportunity. I loved learning about his life, his faith, and his service.
41. As You Wish: Inconceivable Tales from the Making of The Princess Bride, by Cary Elwes - (finished 10/29) This was a fun read, with some very funny backstory to some of the actors and movie scenes. (Like the fact that when Count Rugen knocks out Westley after he comes out of the fire swamp...Carry Elwes was literally knocked unconscious, haha). Anyone who loves The Princess Bride would enjoy reading it.
42. Hubener vs Hitler, by Richard Lloyd Dewey - (finished 11/7) Very interesting story, although written very UN-interestingly (I'm pretty sure this is actually an academic paper, because over half the book is footnotes citing sources, and instead of synthesizing different sources he details every single version of the story from each source.) Anyway, it's the story of Helmuth Hubener, a teenage Latter-day Saint boy in Germany who determined to actively resist Hitler and his regime and was eventually tried and killed for his actions.
43. Be Thou an Example, by Gordon B. Hinckley - (finished 11/12) Another one I borrowed from Mom and Dad. Like Standing for Something, it was fun to read President Hinckley's voice. Although I definitely enjoyed Standing for Something more - it felt a bit more polished and put together.
44. The Magnolia Story, by Chip and Joanna Gaines - (finished 11/22) If you enjoy Fixer Upper and Chip and Joanna, you'll enjoy their book. You'd never know the crazy things they've gone through to get where they're at (plus just the funny details about their life story). You can definitely hear their voice in the writing, their personality as well as their faith. My favorite was the story of Chip being left in charge of their first baby while Joanna went running and him forgetting him at home - twice, haha.
45. I Am Malala: The Girl Who Stood Up for Education and Was Shot by the Taliban, by Malala Yousafzai and Christina Lamb - (finished 12/11) Eye opening, and interesting to hear from the perspective of someone living within the terror of the Taliban and a country torn apart by corruption and war. There are so many innocently suffering at the hands of others.
46. Book of a Thousand Days, by Shannon Hale - (finished 12/11) I read this one in one day. I love Shannon Hale, and she didn't disappoint with this one. It's the story of a handmaid who is locked in a tower with the princess she serves after the princess refuses to marry to the man her father has promised her to. A love story, fantasy, just an enjoyable read.
47. The History of Joseph Smith by His Mother, by Lucy Mack Smith - (finished 12/19) I decided to read this one as part of my preparation for next General Conference. I loved reading it, although it's more of a history of Lucy Mack during the life of Joseph (which was also very interesting and faith-promoting, it just didn't always follow him directly like I expected). I especially loved learning about the faith of his family and his father's dreams. A great resource for learning more about Joseph Smith and the early history of the church.
48. One More Strain of Praise, by Neal A. Maxwell - (finished 12/31) This is (clearly) one of the ones that I finished last minute on New Year's Eve. Oh how I love Elder Maxwell's books! He writes with such beauty and such faith. Reading his books always encourages me to try harder and be better.
49. Alice's Adventures in Wonderland, by Lewis Carroll - (finished 12/31) Although I was only a couple chapters into this one before New Year's Eve, I finished it pretty quickly because it's such an easy read. It really is a very whimsical story. My biggest thought when I finished though is that the movie is nothing like it! Seriously...the movie is missing so much, and added in a bunch of random stuff, too. But I guess they are the same in that they're just silly, random stories of a child's daydreaming.
The Temple Letters, by Claude Richards - I got so close to finishing this one, too! This is another book we inherited from Grandpa Willis. It's a compilation of letters a man sent out to his family to encourage them to be more engaged in temple and family history work. The best part of it was the quotes he shared from prophets and the brethren.
Increase in Learning, by David A. Bednar - Another one I borrowed from Mom and Dad. In true Elder Bednar style, over half the book is "related readings" following each chapter where he shares scriptures and past talks related to the principles/doctrine he's just explained. I'm enjoying it, just didn't get around to finishing it during the crazy month of December.
The Mortal Messiah: From Bethlehem to Calvary Book 3, by Bruce R. McConkie - Clearly I didn't finish the series by the end of the year like I'd intended (there's still 2 more after this one, too). After I finished book 2 in October, I got about 50 pages into this one and then just stopped. I definitely plan to finish it and the rest of the series this year, I just stopped working my way through it.
Now, for my own list-loving sake, a breakdown of genres of the books I read:
Fiction/Novel: 7
Biography: 20
Non-Fiction: 6
Gospel: 16
Sunday, January 5, 2020
A Decade in Review
Now that we're almost a week into the new year, I figured it was about time for my New Years post. :P I saw multiple "year in review" posts on facebook - which I loved reading, but decided mine would not be particularly exciting, haha. Then I saw Keith's "decade in review" post and decided that would be MUCH more fitting/interesting for me! Also, the more I thought about it, I realized this was a HUGE decade for me. So here it is, my very formative, first full decade as an adult.
2010 - So many firsts!
Moved for the first time ever - over 1,000 miles away out to BYU, a big jump from living in the same home in the same small town all my life.
Started college.
Began (and quickly quit) my first job - early morning custodian at the HFAC on campus with Keith.
Went on my first single date (my thoughts from that experience here, haha).
Changed my major.
Went back home and walked for High School graduation - found out I graduated as Salutatorian of my class.
Returned to BYU with Marshall and Keith.
First heartbreak (and second), with the best consolation from my far away family - flowers from Dad, and Domino's pizza and lava cakes from my sisters delivered to my door.
Had a blast that fall semester with my brothers and the coolest roommates!
2011 - Had one more awesome semester out at BYU with seriously the best group of friends.
Moved home "for the summer".
Jessica moved in with us.
(Grudgingly) followed the impression to stay home for good.
Went out to Keith and Julie's wedding in DC, attended General Conference with the family, and went to Marshall and Jenessa's wedding in Mesa.
Started working for Helzberg.
2012 - Moved into an apartment in Springfield with Jenessa, Glenda, and Jessica.
Took at trip out to Provo to visit my friends.
Moved back into Mom and Dad's.
Became Office Manager at Helzberg.
Starting seriously thinking about a mission, then went on my first date with Gabe the same day, haha.
Started dating Gabe.
Went out to my roommate's wedding in Utah (and discovered that I in fact did NOT have unlimited texting with which to text Gabe).
Got engaged.
Quit my job.
Got married.
Experienced my first in-law holiday (5 people at Thanksgiving was almost like culture shock for me).
2013 - Started teaching piano lessons (to 1 student).
Moved to Willard, then back into Springfield.
Had our 1st anniversary - and got scared about the infertility label that put us under.
2014 - Went to Hawaii, which literally felt like a life-changing experience for us. It was more than magical; everything perfectly fell into place for us.
Went out to Utah for Conference with Philip - stayed with Keith and Julie and saw Joseph on our way home.
Moved to St. Louis and Gabe started chiropractic school.
Had my first overnight trip away from Gabe (just staying at Mom and Dad's when Joseph got home from his mission).
Had my first car wreck (and felt the painful shock of how expensive the ticket and having to appear at court was, plus the increased cost of car insurance after).
Began working as a temple worker.
Got called as Young Women Adviser.
Started our shift into a greater focus on health and nutrition.
Bought and moved into our trailer.
2015 - Made some great friends in our ward.
James and Kelli came to visit us for a few days over spring break - and yes they stayed in our trailer with their 6 kids, haha.
Took an Amtrak by myself to Lawrence so I could drive out to Joseph's wedding with Sarah, Marshall, and Jenessa.
Went on Trek as a leader - which really meant just playing around and having fun with some YSA leaders because none of us were assigned to a family.
Started babysitting two little girls once a week.
2016 - Became a trainer at the temple.
Had Marshall and Jenessa visit us over spring break - enjoyed the art museum, a great hike, and cooking and visiting together.
Started occasionally working (about once a week) as basically a personal assistant for Judith - an artist/small business owner I met through someone at church.
Gabe started clinicals at school.
Went to Girl's Camp as the Assistant Ward Camp Director and experienced the discomfort of swollen ankles and heat rash for the first time (my feet were HUGE and red).
Went to Youth Conference.
Went to a free St. Louis Symphony concert in the park for my 25th birthday.
Did a lot of house sitting.
Continued to enjoy the many hikes and parks and free shows and museums St. Louis has to offer.
2017 - Finished our time in St. Louis and said goodbye to the Young Women, our amazing ward, the temple workers, and so many wonderful friends.
Moved back home to Springfield - with a 9 hour drive because our car overheated every 20 min on the drive home...
Gabe had his summer internship with Sam Sanders and then GRADUATED!
We (very unexpectedly) decided to move to Arkansas for work...and then subsequently waited 4 months for everything to work out.
Celebrated our 5th anniversary at a great little cabin in Eureka Springs.
2018 - Moved down to Arkansas!
I was called as Primary President.
Went on a float trip with some new friends.
Explored lots of hikes and parks in beautiful Arkansas. We walked almost every summer night at Lake Fayetteville, just down the road from us.
I started reading regularly again.
2019 - Really started getting to know people and make good friends.
Joined a monthly "Mother's of Influence" group hosted by a friend from the ward.
Enjoyed many more hikes.
I went on a whirlwind trip with Mom, Dad, and Lilly out to Joseph's graduation from OCS in Virginia.
Enjoyed a FANTASTIC 7 course dinner with Gabe's parents at a tiny French restaurant in Fordland, MO.
Gabe and I became temple workers at the Oklahoma City Temple.
Had an awesome birthday bonfire party at Mom and Dad's.
Gabe got called into the Bishopric.
Started traveling to Little Rock every other week for Gabe's work.
And I read. A LOT. (I finished just a few books shy of my goal for 1 book/week).
I learned and grew and changed SO MUCH over this past decade. It really was a formative and transformative time for me. I have learned so much about myself, been stretched and grown a great deal spiritually through my experiences and opportunities, and had my perspectives and outlooks shifted and expanded.
I've gained a firm testimony of and love for the temple, learned (and continuing to learn) to really trust in the Lord's timing, and seen His hand guiding and directing my life in both small and large ways. I've learned that I really am an introvert, haha, and reignited my love for reading that I had as a kid. Healthy, natural living has become a big part of my life - I fully embrace many things that I once scoffed at, haha. I've gained a love for the outdoors and hiking and walking (when it's not cold at least) and learned to greatly enjoy cooking healthy, wholesome food. Gabe and I have grown closer and closer, learned to communicate and compromise, and to fully rely on one another.
So many people and friends have come in and out of my life, some leaving permanent and lasting impressions. The memories truly are great and I have been immensely blessed. I never could have imagined some of the twists and turns my life has taken the past 10 years and where I've ended up. It makes me excited to see where the Lord will take Gabe and I next. So here's to the 20s and all the growth, change, experiences, and opportunities they will bring!
2010 - So many firsts!
Moved for the first time ever - over 1,000 miles away out to BYU, a big jump from living in the same home in the same small town all my life.
Started college.
Began (and quickly quit) my first job - early morning custodian at the HFAC on campus with Keith.
Went on my first single date (my thoughts from that experience here, haha).
Changed my major.
Went back home and walked for High School graduation - found out I graduated as Salutatorian of my class.
Returned to BYU with Marshall and Keith.
First heartbreak (and second), with the best consolation from my far away family - flowers from Dad, and Domino's pizza and lava cakes from my sisters delivered to my door.
Had a blast that fall semester with my brothers and the coolest roommates!
2011 - Had one more awesome semester out at BYU with seriously the best group of friends.
Moved home "for the summer".
Jessica moved in with us.
(Grudgingly) followed the impression to stay home for good.
Went out to Keith and Julie's wedding in DC, attended General Conference with the family, and went to Marshall and Jenessa's wedding in Mesa.
Started working for Helzberg.
2012 - Moved into an apartment in Springfield with Jenessa, Glenda, and Jessica.
Took at trip out to Provo to visit my friends.
Moved back into Mom and Dad's.
Became Office Manager at Helzberg.
Starting seriously thinking about a mission, then went on my first date with Gabe the same day, haha.
Started dating Gabe.
Went out to my roommate's wedding in Utah (and discovered that I in fact did NOT have unlimited texting with which to text Gabe).
Got engaged.
Quit my job.
Got married.
Experienced my first in-law holiday (5 people at Thanksgiving was almost like culture shock for me).
2013 - Started teaching piano lessons (to 1 student).
Moved to Willard, then back into Springfield.
Had our 1st anniversary - and got scared about the infertility label that put us under.
2014 - Went to Hawaii, which literally felt like a life-changing experience for us. It was more than magical; everything perfectly fell into place for us.
Went out to Utah for Conference with Philip - stayed with Keith and Julie and saw Joseph on our way home.
Moved to St. Louis and Gabe started chiropractic school.
Had my first overnight trip away from Gabe (just staying at Mom and Dad's when Joseph got home from his mission).
Had my first car wreck (and felt the painful shock of how expensive the ticket and having to appear at court was, plus the increased cost of car insurance after).
Began working as a temple worker.
Got called as Young Women Adviser.
Started our shift into a greater focus on health and nutrition.
Bought and moved into our trailer.
2015 - Made some great friends in our ward.
James and Kelli came to visit us for a few days over spring break - and yes they stayed in our trailer with their 6 kids, haha.
Took an Amtrak by myself to Lawrence so I could drive out to Joseph's wedding with Sarah, Marshall, and Jenessa.
Went on Trek as a leader - which really meant just playing around and having fun with some YSA leaders because none of us were assigned to a family.
Started babysitting two little girls once a week.
2016 - Became a trainer at the temple.
Had Marshall and Jenessa visit us over spring break - enjoyed the art museum, a great hike, and cooking and visiting together.
Started occasionally working (about once a week) as basically a personal assistant for Judith - an artist/small business owner I met through someone at church.
Gabe started clinicals at school.
Went to Girl's Camp as the Assistant Ward Camp Director and experienced the discomfort of swollen ankles and heat rash for the first time (my feet were HUGE and red).
Went to Youth Conference.
Went to a free St. Louis Symphony concert in the park for my 25th birthday.
Did a lot of house sitting.
Continued to enjoy the many hikes and parks and free shows and museums St. Louis has to offer.
2017 - Finished our time in St. Louis and said goodbye to the Young Women, our amazing ward, the temple workers, and so many wonderful friends.
Moved back home to Springfield - with a 9 hour drive because our car overheated every 20 min on the drive home...
Gabe had his summer internship with Sam Sanders and then GRADUATED!
We (very unexpectedly) decided to move to Arkansas for work...and then subsequently waited 4 months for everything to work out.
Celebrated our 5th anniversary at a great little cabin in Eureka Springs.
2018 - Moved down to Arkansas!
I was called as Primary President.
Went on a float trip with some new friends.
Explored lots of hikes and parks in beautiful Arkansas. We walked almost every summer night at Lake Fayetteville, just down the road from us.
I started reading regularly again.
2019 - Really started getting to know people and make good friends.
Joined a monthly "Mother's of Influence" group hosted by a friend from the ward.
Enjoyed many more hikes.
I went on a whirlwind trip with Mom, Dad, and Lilly out to Joseph's graduation from OCS in Virginia.
Enjoyed a FANTASTIC 7 course dinner with Gabe's parents at a tiny French restaurant in Fordland, MO.
Gabe and I became temple workers at the Oklahoma City Temple.
Had an awesome birthday bonfire party at Mom and Dad's.
Gabe got called into the Bishopric.
Started traveling to Little Rock every other week for Gabe's work.
And I read. A LOT. (I finished just a few books shy of my goal for 1 book/week).
I learned and grew and changed SO MUCH over this past decade. It really was a formative and transformative time for me. I have learned so much about myself, been stretched and grown a great deal spiritually through my experiences and opportunities, and had my perspectives and outlooks shifted and expanded.
I've gained a firm testimony of and love for the temple, learned (and continuing to learn) to really trust in the Lord's timing, and seen His hand guiding and directing my life in both small and large ways. I've learned that I really am an introvert, haha, and reignited my love for reading that I had as a kid. Healthy, natural living has become a big part of my life - I fully embrace many things that I once scoffed at, haha. I've gained a love for the outdoors and hiking and walking (when it's not cold at least) and learned to greatly enjoy cooking healthy, wholesome food. Gabe and I have grown closer and closer, learned to communicate and compromise, and to fully rely on one another.
So many people and friends have come in and out of my life, some leaving permanent and lasting impressions. The memories truly are great and I have been immensely blessed. I never could have imagined some of the twists and turns my life has taken the past 10 years and where I've ended up. It makes me excited to see where the Lord will take Gabe and I next. So here's to the 20s and all the growth, change, experiences, and opportunities they will bring!
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